Training Log 3: Revelations

[crypddyd]

As we have more newcomers again, I will be holding another training session. It will be the same place as before- the part in Limbo. There will be refreshments as well, so even if you do not wish to spar please feel free to come and observe!

[It's that time again! Lion has his little (now a bit beat up since he keeps using the same space) claimed track of land in Limbo set up- wide spaces for people to pair off, a fold-out table with snacks and chairs for sitting and chatting. And of course himself off to the side with his lance in hand- willing to take all challengers and give tips and advice to anyone that comes to him!

He does though, go seeking someone specific out during all this: Chiron]

My friend, may I speak with you in private for a moment?

[There is no feeling of dread here that's just your imagination!]

((ooc: As usual this is a mixer post, so feel free to toss up starters as desired! I will have one for Lion as well if anyone wants to poke him in specific- but use this as a chance to show off- I mean try out new powers you've gained since last time!))

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[schardynfreude]

You certainly have. [It's said with a slight touch of sadness in his voice.]

[heir_to_ruin]

[Oh... well that's not awkward... at all... uuuuhh]

Hey, it's no big deal. [A shrug, trying so hard to act like this is all just fine.] Were you... were you uh... wanting to spar or something maybe?

[schardynfreude]

Only if that would put me in your good graces. I've a feeling it wouldn't go over very well.

[heir_to_ruin]

Good graces?

[A laugh this time and it's far more convincing, as though he's realized he needs to step up his game. Ruin just shakes his head.]

You don't need to do anything for that. The hell you care what I think, anyway?

[schardynfreude]

[It seems perhaps all right in the end, until he asks that question, and that - hurts, actually. He can't rightly say it's unfair, but it does hurt.]

Ah... [Should he be direct? Ruin tends to go about everything in an arc rather than confront head on, but perhaps it's necessary?]

Of course I care what you think. I care that when you look at me, you see someone else. I care that, in a moment when I could scarcely recall who I was, much less where and how and why, I too mistook you for someone else.

I care that I haven't had much opportunity if at all to apologize.

[heir_to_ruin]

[Oh... uh... wow okay so they're just.... talking about this now.

So much for laughing it all off and pretending it never happened. Thanks Chiron.]

Hey, no... I mean, it's fine? You didn't do anything wrong. I was just... being an idiot and moping around. It's not a big deal, Chiron.

[He shouldn't care about Ruin's opinion because no one should care about Ruin's opinion. It's Ruin, he just... fucks everything up. Which is what he did then too! It's all fine. Just a misunderstanding.]

I'm sorry if... if I upset you. I didn't even think to ask- Are you doing okay?

[schardynfreude]

No, no, not at all. I was the upsetting one. You were somewhere quite low and not altogether present, and I was...teetering on some kind of brink between myself and someth...someone that I used to be, in life, I fear. I did not treat you well when you needed help. That is my fault.

[heir_to_ruin]

If we were both all messed up on memory bullshit then why do you get to apologize and I don't?

[schardynfreude]

...Because you didn't do anything wrong.

[heir_to_ruin]

Well.... then neither did you.

[His logic is flawless~]

[schardynfreude]

I most certainly did, though it could perhaps be argued that it was not...me that did it.

[He shakes his head, spreading his hands.] You are allowed to be upset with me.

[heir_to_ruin]

Yeah... but I'm not?

[Maybe a little more cautious. Certainly not scared, Goddess, no. But... wary. Which is fine that's just par for the course, right?]

[schardynfreude]

...I scarcely understand yours or Phoenix's position on the matter. But, I would prefer not to be feared or hated, naturally, so I suppose I've no choice but to accept it.

[heir_to_ruin]

[Chiron... he never even hated Miklan. You're safe, buddy.]

Why would Phoenix be upset with you?

[Lookit how much easier it is to deal with other people's trauma.]

[schardynfreude]

[Maybe he shouldn't have said that. He waves a hand to drop the matter.] Reasons we both remember, but he refuses to make any kind of deal of the man I was while I was alive.

I think he's more upset that I think he ought to be upset. Like you.

[heir_to_ruin]

[Ruin is quiet for a long moment, glancing away, recalling the night he and Lion had beaten the shit out of each other.]

Maybe... maybe that's because you're the one upset with you.

[How many times had he argued with them that it was his fault and they should be mad at him?]

[schardynfreude]

...

[There are a number of brief flickers of emotion that play across Chiron's face, none good, before he places said face in both hands and breathes for a moment. Then brings them back up, running fingers through his wild hair.]

I have to imagine I had reason to do the things I recall doing. No one does anything for no reason. But I cannot for the life or death of me so far figure out what that reason yet is.

[heir_to_ruin]

Maybe that's for the best? I... don't think anyone really likes most of what they remember.

[He just shrugs a little. It's fine. Nothing traumatic here, just unpleasant.]

If you understood your logic, the reasoning behind whatever you did... then you probably wouldn't be so upset about doing it. Right?