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PLAN TIME
[ Beast waits until the next morning to say anything to the rest of the group, in part because it's a little late when they get home and he doesn't want to gather everyone on short notice and also because he needs some time to collect himself. First thing in the morning though he sends the message through discordia. ]
@ everyone
The Authority has been found.
She's one of the regulars at the Phantasma Fantastique that Sir Lion described. There is no doubt about it, she confirmed it once she realized what I was. I fortunately managed to record the conversation between us and I will upload it as soon as [ he figures out how ] I am able to.
I would like to propose a meeting at the mansion in Invidia this afternoon so we can pool together any other knowledge we have and start to formulate a plan. It should be easier to figure one out in person than over messages. If you know of any new Executors or ones who don't check their phone as often be sure to let them know.
[ He pauses a moment, thinking something over, before quickly adding: ]
On another note, I would like to make a personal request.
I would greatly appreciate it if you could all try calling me Achilles for the next little while.
Lately I have been thinking of picking a new name for myself and am quite fond of this one so I would like to hear how it sounds coming from everyone else before I make up my mind. Don't worry though, I will still respond to Beast if you call me that instead.
Thank you. I shall see you all later today.
[ A few hours later, with some help from Rei, the audio file gets uploaded to the group chat. The irrelevant stuff with the "masked guest" and security has been cut so all it includes is his conversation with Greta from beginning to end, but he still provides a time stamp to when she reveals herself for anyone that wants to get to the point. The audio quality is shockingly well for being in his pocket the whole time, so both he and Greta can be heard clearly. (because that'll just make it easier for all of us) In case anyone misses it or needs a refresher, he plays it again at the meeting, right at the start.
Now, let's hash this out. ]
@ everyone
The Authority has been found.
She's one of the regulars at the Phantasma Fantastique that Sir Lion described. There is no doubt about it, she confirmed it once she realized what I was. I fortunately managed to record the conversation between us and I will upload it as soon as [ he figures out how ] I am able to.
I would like to propose a meeting at the mansion in Invidia this afternoon so we can pool together any other knowledge we have and start to formulate a plan. It should be easier to figure one out in person than over messages. If you know of any new Executors or ones who don't check their phone as often be sure to let them know.
[ He pauses a moment, thinking something over, before quickly adding: ]
On another note, I would like to make a personal request.
I would greatly appreciate it if you could all try calling me Achilles for the next little while.
Lately I have been thinking of picking a new name for myself and am quite fond of this one so I would like to hear how it sounds coming from everyone else before I make up my mind. Don't worry though, I will still respond to Beast if you call me that instead.
Thank you. I shall see you all later today.
[ A few hours later, with some help from Rei, the audio file gets uploaded to the group chat. The irrelevant stuff with the "masked guest" and security has been cut so all it includes is his conversation with Greta from beginning to end, but he still provides a time stamp to when she reveals herself for anyone that wants to get to the point. The audio quality is shockingly well for being in his pocket the whole time, so both he and Greta can be heard clearly. (because that'll just make it easier for all of us) In case anyone misses it or needs a refresher, he plays it again at the meeting, right at the start.
Now, let's hash this out. ]
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[And definitely only worried about Chiron, nothing to do with himself. Obviously.]
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And what of you? I know you’re worried for Chiron, but what of yourself, Phoenix?
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[phoenix,]
1/2
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Yet you currently seem most worried about someone else. I know you said your feelings are difficult to sort through but... will you be all right? Do you need help?
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[Why did he keep having this compulsion to brush off everyone's concern? It didn't make any reasonable sense, and yet it felt like something hard-coded into his soul regardless of memory or lack thereof.]
...don't know. I don't even remember his name, and Chiron couldn't tell me either. But I know he was important--that he was everything to me, to the point where I really don't care what I sacrificed to help him.
And I don't know what to do from here. I want to trust Chiron--I do, but at the same time I can't get this recollection out of my head.
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...I understand. There is someone like that in my memories as well; someone important who I only remember as being important and nothing else... so I know those emotions well.
[ That’s right... the woman who held him as the Beastial forest - his home - burned to the ground, the one whose face, name and voice he cannot yet remember, only the feelings in his chest when he was near her. The woman who he knew was almost as important to him as his son, though in a completely different way. It was frustrating and upsetting not remembering more of someone so clearly dear to him, so the things Phoenix says strike particularly close to home.
But this is not about him. He’s talked plenty about himself to Chiron and Rei. This is about Phoenix. ]
For what it’s worth Phoenix, I think it’s very noble of you to still want to trust Chiron. To worry about him despite this. A lesser man may immediately jump to a more violent or hateful response, and I think it’s commendable that you want to give him a chance at all.
But I also feel... it is okay for you to distrust him as well, even if just a little bit. You have more than enough valid reason to and trusting Chiron need not be mutually exclusive from distrusting the man he once was or could still be.
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...You realize that is a dangerous way of thinking, don’t you? Putting yourself aside for “more important things”. You’re setting yourself up for a great fall with a mindset like that.
[ Shit like that is why Chiron was always getting on your ass!! ]
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[beast he just admitted to basically burning his eyes out for someone else without a second thought what do you expect]
That way of thinking just...feels natural, to me. As though it's all I've ever known.
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...I can understand. There are... unhealthy behaviors that come naturally to me as well [ like defaulting to guilt and blaming himself ] as if baked into my core. But that doesn't change that they are unhealthy.
I'm not saying to never put others first, or that being willing to do whatever it takes to protect someone important to you is somehow inherently horrible. I would have maimed or sacrificed myself in an instant if it meant protecting my son. But you can't disregard yourself entirely, physically or emotionally. If you keep doing that, eventually you'll be no use to anyone when it counts.